I have type 2 bipolar disorder and am currently going through an “Ultradian” or ultra-ultra rapid cycling cycle. Most days, I go through mania, remission, and depression all within a few hours. Some days it’s manageable and other days it leaves me crying at my desk at work. Sometimes, the mania will be so severe I’ll start having an anxiety attack only to suddenly shift into deep depression.

It’s been an interesting time as I’ve learned much about my disorder from how often I shift between the bipolar cycles. I know what mania feels like and am hyper-aware of when I shift into it; my brain becomes scattered and unfocused yet unable to wind down. It’s like a sudden rush of nervous energy comes over me and won’t die down until the mini cycle has passed or my meds kick in.

For more about my experience, please watch my video of my firsthand testimony while ultra-ultra rapid cycling: